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|Another Day|

  • I think ive really been struggling to come up with another things to say

  • as if nothing i could come up with is important enough to put in here

  • i mean, isnt this supposed to be our place?

    you should be allowed to say whatever you want

    not like that many people are even reading this, i mean

  • yeah

  • i know

    its just, idk, i think it became just hard to write for a while

    i think i got a bit tired of copying and pasting our writings into tags

    i dont think this is really an efficient way to lay out our thoughts, yknow?

  • yeah, thats true

    but, whatever, we're typing now, we got the ball rolling

    why not take advantage of it and just, type?

  • hhhh,, i guess, what do i even say tho?

  • iii mean, iuno, how was your day?

  • hhh, boring, kinda, idk

    i guess thats also why i didnt feel like typing

    its all been kinda, static, now

    im still sulking about getting banned from e6

    that kinda sapped a lot of my motivation to do things

    it sorta feels like we're back at our parents house, just kinda, doing whatever

    killing time, trying to give some meaning to meaningless, just kinda, making time pass

  • oh cmon it cant be that bad

  • hhh hhhhhhhhhhh,, yeahh,

    ig we're not dying anymore

    the anxiety is less,, stupid

    im kinda, feeling more energy

    but its still,

  • yeah

  • i know what you mean

    i could be edgy and say that "this isnt quite living"

    but i think it kinda is

    no matter how boring it feels we are still alive

  • yeah, you're right..

    i still want more though...

    or maybe less?

    what i mean is that i dont want the stress, i dont wanna worry about money, i dont wanna worry about, how the fuck im gonna stay alive

    but i also want purpose,,, like i wanna serve something, i think

    lately.. everything has felt so meaningless

  • yeah, well, we might not have a goal right now..

    but atleast we're no longer having the goal of burning ourselves out in the pursuit of being a normal person

    we're doing our own thing, right here, right now

  • how much does having our own goals help if no one cares about what we do though?

    you said it, its not like many people are even gonna be reading this

    its not like, being ourselves is really acceptable in many places at all

    i mean im still scared of sharing this website itself with our friends

  • hhh,, fuck

    i shouldn't have said that

    im sorry, but, yeah, at this rate yeah, thats true, we're in our little isolated part of the internet void

    its not like people suddently stumble into random websites outta nowhere

    but maybe, have you considered that we maybe don't have to be like this?

    what would happen if we weren't scared of sharing this website with our friends?

    what would happen if we shared it with every person we know?

    what would happen if we shared it with every person we know?

  • you fuckin know we can't do that

    do you want everyone to know we're a pedophile??

    do you want everyone to peruse into our thoughts?

    to like, fuckin, see ourselves being like this?

  • If you dont want that then Why The Fuck are we putting it in some publicly accessible website??

    Why are we making it look cool?

    Why are we typing as if we imagine an audience looking at it?

    Why not keep this in a notes app on our phone or something, where no one can see it

    Why did we even make that journal in the first place then?

  • I,,, I Dont Know

    i just thought it'd be cool...

    i dont know, fuck, maybe i thought someone would stumble into it and itd maybe resonate or whatever the fuck

    just, as long at its strangers i think im fine with that

    just not the people who know us, its too risky

    i dont want you know what to happen again

  • Fuck, i dont want that either, you know that

    i just think being upfront is the best way to go about it

    like atleast that way we deal with it from the beggining, without dying of anxiety all the time

    i just think we're not committing to anything

    we're taking half measures, one feet in, the other out

    how much time till we get torn out once they start moving in different directions?

  • i dont know..

    i dont know what to do

    i feel like it's death either way

    and i feel like i've been mourning

    ive been mourning this whole time

  • well, i think i know what to do when something dies

    we just have to cry

    we gotta let it go



    • *hug*


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